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Because I work 50 hours a week and live with my mom who has a tendency to want me to do things when I want to be left alone, I can’t dedicate the time to my goals of programming and learning the Unix/Linux system administration that I want.

I have big dreams that could not only be incredibly fun but also could turn into a computer career.

My BBM graphics project is the most impressive thing I’ve ever done and the cool checkerboard animations are just the start. I want to add features that exist in other libraries such as copying part of one image onto another.

My code is different in that it doesn’t use any object oriented programming features. No classes or even structures. It’s all done with pointers and other arguments to functions such as the width and height of the image. In recent times, my functions take a bits per pixel argument which is used to save image files using different degrees of grayscale or even reduce the number of colors in other ways. A lossy compression which works best with video game type graphics. Think NES or Gameboy to get an idea of the kind of images I’m talking about.

I have code for the BMP, TIFF, PBM, PGM, PPM, and PAM formats. I also installed the ImageMagick and NetPBM tools which allow me to use commands to change those formats into others(how I made the animated GIF files my friends have seen on my Facebook account.

And I’m not even using a real Unix environment yet but have customized my old Windows 10 computer with MSYS2 to compile my code and run other Unix commands. This means I have the Bash shell and if I ever succeed in getting my own apartment I will also learn shell scripting to a degree that may even allow me to run my own Minecraft server like Jamie already is doing and also a basic web server like I had on Ubuntu Linux years ago. I’ll collect old computers and connect them to the internet do handle these things and run a computer lab and teach people how to use computers or people already comfortable with basic usage how to get started programming.

Unfortunately I have been experiencing another side effect. It looks like I’ve lost some hair on my head. I did some searching and found that lots of others noticed significant hair loss in only 2 months. Jocelyne has mentioned it in June one night when taking me home but I didn’t think I noticed but lately I have been shedding hairs while at work that end up in my mouth and then I choke on them.

And the insane amount of diarrhea, oily skin, and stomach pain I’ve had over the past few months is making me have to quit the Gabapentin anyway. It’s gonna be hard to build up my health savings fund anyway if I continue to use it to pay for it anyway because it’s so expensive.

Plus my performance at work will probably be much better without the side effects.

https://healthunlocked.com/rlsuk/posts/134363303/hair-loss-on-gabapentin

https://www.jpsmjournal.com/article/S0885-3924(08)00650-7/fulltext

https://www.reddit.com/r/Fibromyalgia/comments/7imk8u/i_took_myself_off_of_gabapentin_because_my_hair/

The first problem with the consistent life ethic as described by Wikipedia is that it only includes human life and therefore is not consistent enough for me.

Second opposing assisted suicide is not something I’m interested in because quite seriously a person must have the right to end their life when it’s no longer worth it.

For example if something happened where I was permanently blind. My life would be over since I could not work and make money or do my art.

The consistent life is a good start but there is a difference between ending your own life and that of another without their permission.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Consistent_life_ethic

PS: To all the people who have tried to tell me that a fetus is no more sentient than a carrot or something similar, I’ll never believe that and even if you were right, the problem is society doesn’t seem interested in preventing pregnancy or permanent sterilization surgery would be promoted by everyone and tax funded too as it should be.

But people make money off of selling abortions and birth control pills and their greed is the reason why we don’t have the policies required to prevent pregnancy in the first place. That’s what we should be agreed on and work toward, not making abortion illegal, but preventing pregnancy in the first place.

People think I call myself pro-life to mean my goal is about making abortion illegal but to be against something means you want to stop it from happening, not that you want to “punish” people or make them go to jail. Nobody should be punished because nobody has a free will and nobody deserves anything.

But people are not usually on the level to understand that fact and they have the nerve to think people choose their actions. Nobody chooses their actions because those actions are the effects of prior causes. That is determinism and without that understanding nobody will learn to prevent abortion because they don’t know why it happens. Don’t think for a minute that I don’t know the social and financial reasons it happens. And that’s why we need to fix those problems. How to do it will be a talk we will all have.

I get a lot of strange messages from people I don’t know on Facebook but this one is hard to beat.

Obviously it’s hard not to notice that this is actually quite typical of men. All they want to do is fuck things. Then they wonder why I don’t want to be seen as one of them and it only makes my desire to transition to female stronger.

My third format will be known as BPM or Binary Pixel Map. It will be capable of storing ANY image file ever made up to 24 bits Red, Green, Blue but also capable of 1,2,4, or 8 bits grayscale.

This means it’s capable of doing anything my other formats BBM and BGM can do. But I like all 3 formats equally because I made them up.

There are many good image formats available but they tend to be compressed which makes them hard to read and write from a programming perspective. So far my code is capable of loading and saving a few different formats. If I were to combine my code with a graphics library in any programming language, I could write a conversion tool which can convert between my BBM,BGM, and BPM formats and others such as PNG,GIF,and JPEG.

It’s a lot of work that I’ll do if I can ever get my own apartment but if I succeed then I’ll want to make another sourceforge project which people can download the tool and several image files in my own formats and then convert them into another format so they can see the images in their preferred image viewer.

Or maybe I’ll even make a viewer tool which specifically allows viewing of the files in a window.