And I Love Him

I give him all my love
That’s all I do
And if you saw my love
You’d love him, too
I love him

He tells me everything
So honestly
Much joy my River brings
He brings to me
And I love him

A love like ours
Could never die
As long as I
Have you near me

Bright are the stars that shine
Dark is the sky
I know this love of mine
Will never die
And I love him

Bright are the stars that shine
Dark is the sky
I know this love of mine
Will never die
And I love him

National Coming Out Day

My roommate, River, informed me that October 11 is national coming out day. In celebration of this I thought I would share some happy moments we have had recently.

The checkerboard dress you see in these pictures was one I bought myself around the time of my 31st birthday when I came out as transgender for the first time. River and I were playing around with it and taking some memory pictures. It was a good time.

River and I are both transgender, but we go far beyond expectations of people and it’s important to not let people put us into a box of expectations. Not all trans people want or need the same things. If I had to describe being transgender in my own words, I would say that it is about not letting other people’s prejudice or the body you were born with define what person you are. That’s why people come out and live as their most Honest self, even though they are sometimes misunderstood. Years ago I didn’t know what all the talk about LGBT pride was about, but I do now.

Chastity in the Dress
River in the Dress
Chastity Spinning in the Dress

People see me in my daily life as I work my job. Some of them mistakenly think I am a “regular person”, but others know not to judge a book by its cover and that there is a much more fabulous person that only those who spend time with me in a judgement free zone can get to know. River lives with me and we see each other at our best and our worst. Never have I been so happy.

And today is also the day that we are celebrating River’s birthday. Tomorrow is his birthday but I will be working, so today is a most triumphant celebration! That is why we are so alive, so proud, and so gaaay!!!

Vaccine Death Report

I have not kept up with my writing goals recently. I have been much too busy with work and too depressed to do much else because of what is going on in the world.

Today I have been reading the Vaccine Death Report. The true numbers of how many people have died remains hidden for many reasons of ignorance, greed, and control by governments and companies who want to enslave humanity in ways never before possible.

I personally knew near the beginning of this pandemic that something was wrong. I highly suspected that the flu was being renamed to Covid. However I was also aware of the harms of already existing vaccines. People have died from various vaccines in the past and I think each person should be given informed consent about the risks vs. benefits of any choice they make about their own health.

I have kept most of my thoughts and feelings to myself about these topics for the past few years because I knew that nobody would believe me. I’m basically a nobody in society’s eyes. However I have come to a point where I can no longer stay silent. When I heard the news about Biden’s vaccine mandate, I quickly realized I could soon be put into a position where I lose my job for refusing the Covid vaccines. However my position is solid because there are issues I cannot move on no matter how much I am threatened.

I am a person who lives as an ethical vegan. I do not put things into my body that I consider to be morally or ethically wrong, including any food that has been obtained from any animal without their consent. No meat, dairy, eggs, or honey, or anything else that I am made aware of contains ingredients from animal bodies.

Additionally, I am a lifelong celibate. The literal reason why I chose the name Chastity White Rose was originally because I vowed to be a virgin for life and never have sexual intercourse. I define this as putting other people’s genitals into my body or the reverse. This is also for reasons of health, including physical, mental, and spiritual health.

So it’s no great surprise that I would not blindly accept vaccines into my body just because anyone tells me that I will be fired from my job if I refuse. Coercing people into doing something with their body or inserting things that they don’t want to is identical to rape. I do not consent to such things and I want to make this clear and only explain it once so that I can send this post to anyone who asks me about this.

However it’s also quite possible that if I do lose my job because of this mandate, then I will no longer be able to communicate with anyone. That’s why I choose this time to speak out sooner rather than later.

I have no desire to debate other people on whether we should be taking Covid vaccines or any other type of vaccine. My issue is the current lack of respect for people’s medical choices.

However my opinion on the matter is that if you were informed as I am of the possible injuries and death from these vaccines, you would not want to take them. I encourage you highly to read the Vaccine Death Report to see what information I am referring to.

There is also a lot of other information which I have seen and much of it is censored. Entire YouTube channels have been deleted because someone spoke out against the evils that the government and vaccine manufacturers have been doing to us.

Another good resource is this book: The Truth About Covid-19

I know many will call me a conspiracy theorist and make attempts to credit and censor me for sharing this information. But it’s not as if you listened to the things I said anyway. And some theories turn out to be true, which has been the case in the past.

The Strange World of Being an Adult

Life as an adult is quite complicated. I have been living in my own apartment since September 2019 and things were going very well for awhile and I wasn’t worried about finances. However things have changed since I lost the high paying job I had that allowed me to pay my rent and bills easily.

I love my current job a lot more than what I used to do and that’s good. However now it appears that I have medical bills I cannot pay and to complicate matters further, people have been trying to bill my previous insurance instead of my new insurance even though I made it clear that I have a new insurance that I pay for out of my paycheck that I haven’t had a chance to use yet because the claims for my lab tests and visit to the endocrinologist were billed to my old insurance which ended in April.

I also found out how bad my own teeth are and that I’m basically going to have to pay $1800 for a root canal and crown on a tooth or I’ll end up in so much pain that I’ll have to get it extracted.

So here I am in debt and worried about money. I was visiting my mom today to celebrate her birthday that was yesterday. While I was there, I was trying to make phone calls and figure out my finances.

Until finally I stopped myself and decided I’m going to have a good time with my mom no matter what shit happens.

And besides that, I may be in debt and have a bad right knee but I also realized that the only reason I’m worried about my finances and bills is because I don’t want to lose the fabulous life I have. I have my mom, my roommate, and I still could never be in as much pain as I was back when I still had my testicles. I have achieved a happiness I never thought I would have at this point. So I am focusing on what I do have rather than what I don’t.

And if I end up with no teeth to eat with, I can always drink vegetable juice. It tastes good.

Mechanical T Spin Double

I have watched many videos of Tetris and of particular interest to me are the methods of doing repeated T spin doubles. It scores many more points than even using repeated Tetris(4 lines at once) clears. For an example of how it works, here is a video of me doing it.

I was using this method by copying other videos where it was done, however I could not find the name or source to read about this method. I finally found it!

There are two methods that work which are listed on that page. Both of them work and can give you 15 or more T spin doubles in a row. However the pattern will be broken after that because the stack gets continually higher. Even so, this is a way to boost your score at the start of the game.

There is a catch though. Certain blocks must randomly come to you at the start. Particularly for the first version of the loop as shown in the above video, there must be a T block to place the J and Z blocks on top of exactly as shown. If your first two blocks are J and Z then even the hold feature won’t save you and you will have to do something different, including a possible mirrored setup so that you can use the L and S blocks instead.

The second method, which is referred to as Mechanical TSD v3 is a little bit harder to explain and instead requires the I block near the start because other blocks must be placed on top of it. However this method also has more variations on which two pieces can be used. I have a video of me using this method as well.


My score is not as high as in the other video because I don’t have as much practice with this method but it’s still capable of the same thing once you get it started.

There may even be other methods of doing repeated T spin doubles this easy that have not been discovered yet. As long as Tetris has been around there are still people making new achievements.

Also it’s worth mentioning that modern versions of Tetris make these loops possible only because of the 7 bag system where you will get all 7 pieces each 7 blocks dropped but the order is randomized. This means that it’s completely unlike the original Gameboy or NES Tetris you might be used to if you are a classic player.

Also, here is my profile if you want to try beating my scores or challenging me in multiplayer sometime.

I believe that these demonstration videos of mine will help other players who are looking for ways to score higher and go far beyond what I can do. There are a few other videos on the internet but not nearly enough to make it clear how easy T spin doubles are to make.