Transphobia, Homophobia, and Rape

I want to write about a very serious topic. For some time I have been mystified by people who are seemingly fearful or hateful of transgender and/or gay people.

I believe that these fears come both from the hearts of evil people who do not know any longer who they are capable of raping. After all, if you are a male rapist who tries to rape a woman only to find out that she is a transgender woman but has enough male muscle to overpower you, then you’re probably going to die.

The solution? Don’t rape people.

On the flip side, there is also a genuine fear of some people that they will be raped. I believe this is behind the fears of transgender people in the bathrooms or locker rooms of their preferred gender. Cisgender females are afraid of transgender women because they see them as males and because biological males have the reputation of being the majority of rapists, they fear having them near.

The situation is even more complicated for transgender men because they would be in more danger if they were around bio males with bad intentions.

But there is a much larger problem that is being overlooked and not talked about. People can be raped or sexually assaulted by those of their same biological sex. So nobody know who is going to rape them while at the same time nobody knows who they are capable of raping because that’s largely just a matter of physical strength.

A group of ten biological females could easily overpower a biological male. Or maybe just two of them if that male has not been eating his veggies lately.

In contrast with the fears of being raped, transgender people as well as homosexuals have their own struggles of trying to live their lives and being misunderstood. I would say that the majority of them pose no threat to anyone but all it takes is one of then setting a bad example and then panic arises. In spite of the fact that the majority of all crimes have been committed by the cisgender heterosexual people, people instead have misplaced fears about transgender people or gay people when they are probably more likely to get attacked by a member of a majority group.

The thing is that cisgender heterosexuals will ALWAYS be the majority of the population. This is because they can reproduce because they have straight sex and have not been sterilized by surgery or hormones like transgender people have been.

Sometimes people are born gay or transgender. For whatever the various causes are, some people will just never be “normal”. I have been investigating the causes of this for some time and so far the evidence points to having extra chromosomes or unusual hormone levels while developing inside their mother before birth.

I don’t usually talk about all of these things in such specific details but I have had these thoughts on my mind as I try ti understand my own experiences.

And for the record, up to this point in my life I have only always used men’s restrooms and changing rooms. It’s what I’m used to and so I stick with it because I don’t want to make other people uncomfortable who do not understand the complex issues as I’ve described in this post.

But what I can tell you is that my first time around a group of naked men was when I was in the Navy. It was terrifying and was part of what led to me having a mental breakdown and being discharged. And I’ve never talked about it like this before but you’ll have to take my word for it when I tell you that I truly know fear.

And the last thing I want is for anyone to be afraid of me. But those who truly know me are aware that I am the least violent person you will ever meet. I am a vegan after all.

I am learning many new things through my gender transition. With all the knowledge I have gained I know that I will be dedicating my life to helping other LGBTQIA people in the ways that I can.

FreeDOS Compiler Script

This could be one of the most important programming videos I have ever made. After installing the proper tools from the FreeDOS bonus disc, I made a script which sets up the paths so I can run 3 different compilers under FreeDOS. So far I have only tested them on the simple Hello World example. But this is an important step. Now that all the compilers are working, I need only learn some kind of way to do graphical programs in DOS. I have seen a few examples in videos but there is a lot of research I need to do. I learned the entire virtualbox installation process as well as how the compilers are used just from bingewatching FreeDOS video tutorials. This video will remind me of my development setup in case I forget how I did it.

Chaste Tris Coming soon on Steam

I am in the process of getting Chaste Tris ready to be released on Steam soon. It’s already possible for people to play since the source is available on Github, but my goal is to bring it to people who are not programming nerds by having it be an official game on Steam.

The process of becoming a steam partner and going through several reviews has not been easy because creating a dozen images with strict requirements and having to fix them while visiting several pages on the website and filling in the fields completely consumed many hours of my nights.

And I imagine people who play my game for the first time will be confused about how it works but I recently created a readme file with instructions of which keys do what and also how the replay feature works. I’ll also have to answer many questions from players and fix bugs if there are any remaining.

Programming and publishing a video game is not as easy as someone might first think. But I set out with goals and started learning programming when I was 14 years old and now, shortly before my 35th birthday, I have exceeded my wildest dreams.

Below are some screenshots of me working on getting things ready and submitting a new build with the readme and license text files.


Mother’s Day

Mother’s Day

Today is Mother’s Day. I probably wouldn’t notice if I didn’t work in the Hy-Vee Floral department because I don’t pay attention to the calendar much.

I also visit my mother ever week and show her how much I love and appreciate her. I respect my mother not because she gave birth to me but because she was, and still is, an actual parent to me. She did her best to raise me the best she could and even homeschooled me.

And now I’m an adult and have to figure out this strange world mostly on my own, but it does help that my mom gave me a great start. I consider myself lucky because many people did not get to spend as much time with their mothers as I have.

Not everyone has a good mother. Some of them gave birth to them but did not love them. And some mothers did not give birth at all but adopted their children instead. Being a mother, or father too, can mean something different for each person.

But if you have a mother that was good to you, you should be good to her. Not because it’s Mother’s Day today but every day of the year.

Be excellent to your mom.
And party on dudes!