May 15 is my birthday. I am 34 years old today and for the first time, I am actually quite satisfied with where I am in life. That was not the case 3 years ago, however. At that time I was in both physical and emotional pain. I also did not trust anyone enough to talk about my struggles because I believed nobody cared except my mother and yet I thought she could not relate to my type of problems.
But things have changed a lot in the past 3 years. I still see much evil in the world and it is easy to get depressed, but I have also been able to see the good in myself and others. I have a much better understanding of who I am and what I believe. I do not know where I will be going next in life but I’ll try to enjoy the journey.
One of the biggest things that caused the change was the day I started writing a story. I started out writing a story of a perfect paradise where no animals were hurt. But then something rather unusual happened, I started having a conversation with a unicorn in this world that was like a dream. Sometimes I was writing what I remembered from a dream while I was asleep.
Other times it was as though the dream was happening even while I was awake. I would probably have looked conscious to others but I was not fully present in the physical world and would often have no memory of what I had just been doing. I am not exactly sure what was going on but I came to realize I do not know what reality is anymore. Honesty the Unicorn talked to me about all my thoughts and feelings and I don’t know how much I was writing the story and how much the story was writing me. I published these conversations as books and have been trying to share them with the world.
And so I would like to start a new tradition this year on my birthday. What I want from my friends and family is not presents, parties, or birthday cards in the mail. I just want people to read this story and let me know what you really think of it. You will probably think I am just mentally insane, and yet, I know something has happened to me that is beyond labels. I hope that you also meet your truth if you haven’t already. I met mine, and its name is Honesty. The unicorn healed me with its silver horn of truth. The legends are true.
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