Chastity White Rose

Author: Chastity White Rose

  • Name Rant

    My mom has two major reasons she hates the name Chastity.

    1: The famous Chastity Bono was born out of wedlock.
    2: It sounds too much like my sister’s name, Charity.
    I have heard her same speeches about this over and over. Recently this happened twice. First when I showed her my name in Pokémon Go: “ChastityUnicorn”. Second, when I emailed her recently and it showed the name Chastity Rose because I had changed my google profile name. Apparently it changes my display name across all google products. If I had known this, I would have waited till I was moved out so my mom wouldn’t ask me a bunch of questions.
    I’m no longer afraid for any random stranger on the Internet to know who I am. Those who pay close attention would have noticed a long time ago from my Style Savvy screenshots that I’ve been naming myself Chastity  since a long time ago.
    But because my mom asks questions about it and I know others will ask the same dumb questions, I’ll spell it out here and update it as sort of a FAQ as needed.
    First, the last name Rose comes from the flower. It has nothing to do with my friend by the name Rose. The only thing in common is that we both like the flower called the Rose. She is the Black Rose and I am the White Rose.
    Second, the name Chastity was chosen not because of how it sounds nor based off of the name of anyone else. It was originally a suggestion from my friend Sarah because I’m a  virgin. It fits perfectly because after all I’m the one who used to host a podcast with a friend about Celibacy and Veganism. I have many thoughts about that and can easily explain it whenever asked.
    But basically the name Chastity White Rose is a nickname I go by in video games and some of my online accounts. People will of course always know what my birth name is because it’s on all my published books and business cards.
    However for me I get a good feeling about this new name because it’s a way of defining myself rather than letting myself be defined by my mother or anyone else. Only I know who I am.
    I refuse to be put in a box by other people. I’m sick of labels such as Christian, Atheist, Democrat, Republican, Male, Female, etc.
    I know who I want to be and I know that I can be an artist, singer, dancer, programmer, or whatever I want to be.

  • Source code for checkeroll

    I recently uploaded a video of a rolling checkerboard to YouTube and my Facebook account. It was a lot of work writing the program but it was a success. Besides emailing myself regular backups of the source code I also make screenshots like this as an additional backup and to show off!

    Screenshots of the full source code used to make the checkeroll animation. The math is perfect. 30 frames per second times 60 second makes a minute long video. I use the ffmpeg command to encode the files into a video which I can upload to sites.

  • Checkerboard with ImageMagick

    You may find this hard to believe, but the checkerboards I uploaded tonight to my social media were made with this C++ program I wrote using the ImageMagick library. Luckily the reference and the examples were understandable enough for me even though I know very little about classes in C++ or understand all the various types of classes that are available in the library.
     
    In any case this checkerboard is created by my custom code which writes every single little pixel one at a time. It’s a bit slow for some reason but I don’t care because it actually works!
     
    The implications for the fact that I got the library working at all are amazing. If I learned how to do stuff with it beyond creating an image and just writing pixels the hard way who knows what may happen.
    These 4 screenshots show the details and I’m making a major backup of the source code everywhere I can as well.
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  • J and the Red Dress

    There is a story I’d like to tell you because it’s really quite funny but at the same time a little sad. There was this girl who decided she wanted to be my girlfriend. I’ll refer to her as J.

    You see J met me online and thought she was in love with me. I was cool with it at first until she started doing dangerous things like trying to hitchhike to my town. Later she came on a train with no warning without permission from me and my mom. She stayed with us for a few days but acted stranger over time and we now know she is bipolar and was having a hyper manic episode.

    She also repeatedly tried to kiss me and talk me into having sex and I was pretty upset about that because I had explained first thing to her that I was never going to have sex with her or anyone.

    But during that time I learned a few things. First not to reveal where I lived to people I don’t know very well online. The second and most important thing for me was that I had confirmation beyond a shadow of a doubt that I had no sexual interest in women. Here was this girl who would run around in our apartment naked and was begging me to have sex with her too. My only thought was hoping that she would find someone else for that and stop pestering me.

    I feel really bad for her because I know she knows not what she does and I have no anger at her. I just hope she gets the emotional help and medication that she needs and reaches stability in her life.

    And the third thing I learned happened the time when she let me wear her red dress. I remember the feeling I got from that and will never forget. Thank you J, where ever you are and I wish you the best.

  • Rose Song

    I love all the pretty roses!
    All the roses of the world!
    Red, Pink, Yellow, Black, and White.
    They are precious in my sight!
    I love all the pretty roses of the world!