Author: Chastity White Rose

There is a fear I have that I don’t believe I’ve ever mentioned before but it is a fear many biological men must have. I sometimes fear the possibility that someone could falsely accuse me of raping them or claim that I’m the father of their child.

Why Transition?

I decided I wanted to write an explanation of why I think transgender people feel the need to transition in such ways such as changing their name, legal gender, or change their bodies through hormones and/or surgery.

I could be totally off in my reasoning but I think it’s about safety and simplifying relationships. At least this is what it is in my own experience.

Safety: Because some people may commit violence towards people who don’t conform to societal expectations of them because of their biological sex, this provides motivation to change their appearance to match the biological sex so that they are not as noticed and can blend in. For example there are people who have negative attitudes about men who watch My Little Pony. Even such a small thing as this can send some people into a rage. One person accused me of being a pedophile because they saw pictures of characters from MLP that I shared on Facebook. Biological men are more commonly accused of being a sexual predator than a biological female and they are allowed to like girly cartoons or wear dresses. I don’t like people’s attitude of what a man should like or the assumption that a man is automatically dangerous and to be feared.

Simplicity: I also believe that it can simplify friendships and probably sexual or romantic relationships. I don’t want people to only be interested in me because I appear male, nor the opposite for that matter. But the main thing is that I would prefer to form relationships after I am established in my identity rather than make friends only to lose them later because they don’t like me to change.

Recently it seems I’ve had Christians trying to save my soul. I don’t know what the deal is. First I get preached to by a lady I used to know at Walmart, then I have a customer and even a co-worker at Hy-Vee telling me Jesus loves me. I can’t respond to that properly in public but here is my response.

1. I have no proof that there is a Jesus.
2. I don’t care if Jesus does love me. If he doesn’t love the animals and isn’t a vegan then his love is worthless to me.
3. If you think that telling a vegan transgender atheist that Jesus loves them is gonna make them a Christian again you don’t know how the world really works. I’m too far gone at this point and I know your religion and god are worthless.

My Christian friends who are worried about my soul need to worry about their own soul if such a thing exists. Nearly all the Christians I knew growing up never had the slightest clue that there was anything wrong with killing and eating these animals but I came to see it and was very sad that I hadn’t had somebody to teach me real ethics and about going vegan sooner.

And my mother knew nothing either. Why did she learn about veganism from her atheist child? Why didn’t god reveal this to her so that she didn’t go vegan till she’s over 60?

These are the answers I’ve thought about deeply.

1. This god people claim to have a relationship doesn’t exist.

2. This god exists but just doesn’t care anything about the animals who are murdered by the billions.

Whichever option you pick doesn’t matter. Either way it doesn’t help the situation to believe that god loves you. I wouldn’t want love from a god that orders or simply allows the incomprehensible torture and murder that humans do to the animals both human and non human.

I managed to auto create my checkerboard image and display it directly to the window without ever writing it to a file or loading any image files. Now that the checkerboard works all I would need to do is write functions that create other convenient patterns or perhaps use SFML’s drawing features to draw shapes directly to the window as well on top of my checkerboard background.