Author: Chastity White Rose

  • Part 4: Chapter 15: A Better Way

    C: Yes, Honesty, I suppose it would be a unicorn that would be my god. But what does it matter that you are here? What does it matter if you are good and true? What does it matter that you love me? The suffering of others continues and the world goes on with humans continuing to hurt each other and trillions of other animals. What you tell me now will not change the world nor give me the power to do anything about it.

    H: Yes the world is full of much evil and humans who do wrong. I won’t disagree with you there, but do you require the world to be perfect and good all the time?

    C: Of course, who doesn’t want that?

    H: Those who delight in doing wrong. They want their freedom to do wrong just as much as you want them to do right. So who has the final say in what happens? You or the other billions of humans?

    C: People would do well if they followed my example. The world may never be perfect but I believe it could be a lot better. But even so nothing could make right the the suffering of countless beings who had painful lives and painful deaths. The idea of all those who have been here and suffered is more than anyone can count. I do not see how a happy ending to this story is possible.

    H: And yet, even though you know that, you still see the small good in others. Even those humans who do wrong and even those who mistreated you, you still respect their lives enough that you do not wish harm on them.

    C: Of course, because I do not desire anyone to suffer. Nobody, no matter how bad they are or what they have done should be hurt. I only wish for them to change their ways and see that there is a better way.

    H: And do you believe that everyone has the potential to change for the better?

    C: I do not know, but since I do not know what the future holds, I never know if even the most evil could see that they were in the wrong and then completely change and be entirely different.

    H: Let’s do a little thought experiment. I know you are against abortion just as you are against the killing of everyone else. But let me ask you this, if you somehow had the power to go back into the past an abort someone that you knew for a fact would cause you or other great harm, would you choose to kill them to prevent them from hurting others?

    C: No! Just because someone will do great evil does not mean that I have the right to end their life. They still have the right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness!

    H: And why do you think everyone, even the most evil of humans have these inalienable rights? Is it only because this is written in the United States Declaration of Independence?

    C: No, it is because I, Chastity White Rose hold these truths to be self-evident just the same as the writers of the declaration of Independence.

    H: And what evidence is that?

    C: Because I want to live, I want freedom, and I want to make myself happy however that may be. Since I want these things for myself I must protect these rights for others or I am in violation of the golden rule which has always been my principle. So, no matter how evil people may be, I would not intentionally kill them because I do believe there is a better way to fix the world. I do not know if everyone can change or which people will and won’t stop their violence but if I have changed as much as I have in my life then I believe that some of them will change for the better.

    H: And that is the power of life! As long as one is alive then have the liberty to change and improve. Even though the world is full of great evil, you have the power to see this, Chastity. This is what makes you strong enough to go on. I expect to see great things from you as you try to talk others into a better way and pursue your own happiness even though there are many things you are sad about.

    C: Yes, however I may feel at times like giving up, I still believe that unless I try, I’ll never know. I am willing to talk to anybody willing to listen about the way that I live in the hopes that they do follow after my example and walk in the vows of Chastiy, Truth, and Ahimsa. I know many will mock me and reject me as they already have, but the White Rose is stronger than that. I will not be stopped by others because this is my life and I will do what I want to do. I want to make the world better than it was when I got here.

    H: “Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.” – Matthew 5:11

    C: I remember that verse. That seems mysteriously relevant right now.

    H: It is! You see I am Truth. Right now you know me as Honesty the Unicorn, but long before you met me people already persecuted you because you spoke the truths that you knew to be self-evident. People don’t usually like the truth because it makes them feel guilty knowing that they did wrong and so they try to silence you by making you feel that you are somehow wrong for sharing the truth with them. They do this thinking it will take away the pain in their hearts but it never does. So people persecute you for telling the truth as you see it and they make up lies about you and call you sexist, racist, or call you a sinner thinking that they are better than you because they call themselves a Christian and surround themselves only with people who agree with them and never speak what they really feel inside. So I say, blessed are you because you are stronger than all of them that revile you for speaking the truth. You are stronger than you know, Chastity, and you are making more of a difference than you can see. So keep doing what you are doing and pursue your happiness! May the Horse be with you!

  • The Good, the Bad, the Pretty

    The Good

    I have much to be happy about in life in general. I published my recent book: “Chandler’s Honesty” which explains more about my life than anything I have ever written or said in my videos. I also have a new computer and it is far faster than any machine I have ever had. My excellent friend in England bought it for me so that I can play Minecraft with him in good quality and other modern games. I also hope to use it to start recording my video podcasts that I do usually once a week.

    The Bad

    I am back at work now but even after two months since my injury my right knee is still hurting. I am very afraid of losing my job if I can’t make quota at work. But more than that I want to avoid reinjuring myself. I may have to get another job and this is possibly the worst time in history to be switching jobs because of this Covid-19 nonsense. I don’t want to have to change jobs but I know I don’t have the knees I had when I started this job 2019. Shelving is a real knee killer and I understand why so many people quit this job. But I don’t give up easily and I will work smarter rather than harder.

    The Pretty

    Although things are sometimes bad and I am in a financial mess, I believe I have important work to do with my writing and podcasts. I am trying to promote my books as much as possible and record podcasts with important people so that I am making the best use of my time however much or little there is. And at least I am recovering with my knee injury and I feel generally very good and healthy. Even more so since the lack of testosterone in my system has made me feel emotionally calmer even though I still have times of stress about my job. I am happy about everything else except my financial situation but I am hopeful because I have been in worse situations than this but found a way to make life better.

  • Sunday Podcast of 2-7-2021

    I recently did a livestream with many guests. It was one of our best so far and I have made it available on multiple platforms.

    https://rumble.com/vdnsan-sunday-podcast-272021.html
    https://www.facebook.com/1190355304/videos/10224186657672730/
    https://youtu.be/qHl_EmmhqlI
    https://www.pscp.tv/w/1OwxWVnjddVJQ
    https://www.bitchute.com/video/PvrJdPrceAtJ

    The secret of how videos like this are possible is because I recently discovered a new livestreaming service. Streamyard allows me to have shows that are streamed live and people can comment on them while they are being streamed and recorded. It’s now the fastest way to get a message out in video form and I am slowly learning how to use it.

    https://streamyard.com/

    At this time I am concerned about free speech and I do not like that posts are being deleted because they don’t agree with the political views of social media platforms. You may have heard about what happened to force Parler to be shut down. I want to give people a way to speak who may be unable to otherwise. If you have an unpopular opinion and are shut down when you try to write or speak about it, let me know and maybe you can be a future guest on my show that I normally plan to be doing on Sunday nights when I am home.

  • Feeling Pretty Lately

    This post is sort of unusual for me because I’ve never been one who cared very much at all about the physical appearance of my own body or the bodies of others very much. But this is what I am thinking about right now. I have noticed that I am generally more pleased with my appearance since my orchiectomy.

    When I took this picture, the intention that night wasn’t to take a selfie. I was just testing my Android phone to try to record a Minecraft video by placing it in front of my new monitor.

    However when I had the phone camera facing me I was so pleased with how I looked that I took this picture anyway. I haven’t always been happy with how I look and gender dysphoria has been the main reason. But I do like what I see now much more than I used to. I’m not sure how much of it is because I look different or because how I feel about myself has changed somehow. But I really do feel pretty.

    It could be actual changes in how I look or just hormones messing with my mind but it’s a good thing. Also, I do seem to have boobs growing and I know it’s not just my imagination because my mom and doctor mentioned it first before I said anything to them. The lack of testosterone has probably resulted in the start of breast development which is not uncommon. It seems my natural estrogen is pretty high even though I am not on HRT. My doctor says my hormone levels are healthy at this point so I have nothing to worry about at least for now.

    I do find something mysterious though. When my doctor was feeling my chest and exclaimed: “You have boobs girl!”, I felt a sudden rush of happiness. I’m not sure why though. Never really did care much about boobs in my life but I guess evidence of physical changes or at least the fact that I’m starting to look less like a male is a happy experience for me and just feels right somehow. But for me, the most attractive and important part of anyone is their face. So I just feel like saying:

    I am beautiful! No matter what they say! And so are you, whoever you are reading my post!

  • The Relevance of Software and Excellent Books

    Because the knowledge of OpenGL I have so far comes from a variety of sources. I should be keeping track of all the best places to get the information I frequently reference whenever I learn things or need to look up a function. So this post will serve as a reminder of some of my learning sources in my journey.

    The specifications for various versions can be found here.
    https://www.khronos.org/registry/OpenGL/index_gl.php

    The reference that I use the most frequently for my legacy OpenGL programming. Something about the layout is pleasing to me.
    https://www.khronos.org/registry/OpenGL-Refpages/gl2.1/

    Another great reference that shows several different versions. Perfect for looking up a function and seeing which versions support it.
    http://docs.gl/

    The lazyfoo tutorials were how I personally got my very first start in OpenGL. However it took me a long time because I converted the examples into pure ansi C89 instead of the original C++. Most people wouldn’t do this.
    http://lazyfoo.net/tutorials/OpenGL/index.php

    Although I have had great success in using OpenGL for some animations I’ve published on YouTube, Rumble, and other social media, I do find that the subject of OpenGL is weirdly intimidating for new people trying to learn about it. It’s the burden of choice of which libraries to use for creating the context(glfw vs. freeglut) or for loading modern extensions (glad vs. glew), or whether to use legacy vs. more modern core versions.

    There are so many different types of programmers who each have their own opinion on how things should be done as well and the people who make decisions on specifications and different support in GPUs or Operating systems that perhaps using OpenGL for graphics is not ever going to be as simple as using a different library(SDL, Allegro, SFML, Raylib) or even a different programming language which has graphics built into its standard library(Freebasic,Java,etc.).

    Basically programming(especially graphics) is not as easy as I thought it was when I first started at 14 years old. But at the same time the challenge is precisely why I love it so much. If it was something anybody could do, it would not be as great of an accomplishment. I know a bit but I also know how much there is that I don’t know. But the journey has made me smarter. Perhaps someday I will even write a programming book or at least a tutorial that I make available online.

    Making software in this modern age makes a real world difference. The software is just as important as the hardware it runs on when you consider that the internet and the information available to people makes a real world difference in who lives or dies. Therefore even basic knowledge I have attained such as managing my websites and my journey into exploring open source software has enabled me to know enough to publish my books and also my mom’s books. The software that powers book publishing as well as what we are able to find online is the only hope we have for improvement in this world because it allows information to travel to people faster than ever before.

    Also I want to give a big thumbs up to my friend Poffo Ortiz who is a very powerful Vegan activist and author of several of his own books. I am at this time at page 130 of his book: “The Portal of Adamastos”. I haven’t finished it yet but this book is really interesting! You can find this book and others linked to from his site here:

    https://poffoman13.wixsite.com/morndaybooks

    And last but not least, do not forget about my recently published book: “Chandler’s Honesty”
    https://smile.amazon.com/dp/B08T4DGJL1
    https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/1064601

    I do believe I have talked about more topics in one post than ever before. I leave you now with one final piece of advice:

    Be excellent to each other
    and
    PARTY ON, DUDES!