The Power of a Smile

I work at Walmart, and I am the one famous for smiling all the time. This behavior is non-characteristic of autistic people like me, as far as I am aware. The truth is that I use it as a mask to hide what I am really thinking. I use a sense of humor to act like I am not bothered by the offensive things people say and do. Surviving in society and working a job requires me to be an actor. I dislike this because it feels dishonest, and yet I know I can’t say what I am really thinking about because it has nothing to do with work, nor is it socially acceptable to say.

I very clearly remember multiple instances when I smiled at someone, and then they acted really uncomfortable, and one even ran away. I have realized I have the power to get rid of people by smiling at them in a way I have been told is creepy. And yet, I don’t actually know how to smile like a human.

In any case, I have come to see a smile as an illusion that society forces us to maintain, or else there is severe punishment. If I were to show my real feelings towards certain people, I would probably be fired or even attacked. I think that if I ever have a real smile, it is when nobody is watching and I am alone. I will remain mysterious because it makes me safe, and it is fun to annoy people with the power of a smile.

“Just because you see a smile, don’t think you know what’s going on underneath. A smile is a valuable tool, my dear! It inspires your friends, keeps your enemies guessing, and ensures that no matter what comes your way, you’re the one in control.” – Alastor the Radio Demon