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I met another person at work who is vegan and works in the same department as me. I was absolutely thrilled to meet her because it feels relaxing to not have to worry about that conversation coming up. I feel that even my friend who I play video games with at his house is someone I will lose. He still hangs out with me and he knows I’m vegan but still I worry about the issue coming up and starting a fight.

However this woman I met is somebody who I instantly feel more comfortable and relaxed around and we have so much in common. I even told her about the name I chose for myself: Chastity White Rose.

And the name has a lot of meaning than I hope I get a chance to explain to her but for now since it is on my mind, I will explain it on this blog.

Chastity

The following is the definition Google gives for chastity. I hope to talk about all these synonyms and what they all mean to me.

chas·ti·ty
‘CHast?de/Submit
noun
the state or practice of refraining from extramarital, or especially from all, sexual intercourse.
“vows of chastity”
synonyms: celibacy, chasteness, virginity, abstinence, self-restraint, self-denial, continence; innocence, purity, virtue, morality
“a vow of chastity”

I like all the meanings of this because I am a virgin and am committed to celibacy for life. Chastity is the perfect first name for me. The next parts of my name are White and Rose. This link explains it all.

http://roseforlove.com/the-meanings-of-white-roses-ezp-36

And here is a quote from the beginning of it.

“The meaning of shimmering white roses is not very hard to decipher if you go by their appearance. The color white has always been synonymous with purity and virtue. And so, sincerity, purity, and chastity are some of the obvious meanings of a white rose. When you need to convince that your affections are straight from the heart and are as pure as virgin snow, use a white rose. But there are more hidden meanings in a white rose than meets the eye.

White has ever been a symbol of innocence, of a world unspoiled and untarnished. The meaning of a bunch of glowing white roses is innocence and spiritual love. The white rose glorifies a love that is unaware of the temptations of the flesh and resides only in the soul. As opposed to the red rose that speaks of passionate promises, the meaning of a white rose is in its simplicity and pristine purity.

Sometimes called “the flower of light”, one of the meanings of white roses is everlasting love – love stronger than death, an eternal love, undying and all sustaining. White rose speaks of a love that is sustained more by loyalty, reverence and humility than by red-blooded passion. So, in its capacity to worship someone till death, the meaning of a white rose is unchanging loyalty that endures beyond all else.

The white bouquet has been a tradition since Queen Victoria’s wedding in l840. It was in this romantic era that gentlemen started sending flowers to their lady friends to denote special meanings. The white rose is the queen of the bridal bouquet.

Here, the meaning of a white rose is something different altogether. A virgin carrying the white roses seeks to assure her loved one of her purity and innocence. Untarnished and untainted – the white rose is the bride on her wedding day. In the “language of the flowers” the meaning of white roses is “I am worthy of you”. The meaning of the white rose will not be lost on a groom when he sees his bride’s eyes filled with unchanging love and loyalty, a promise to stand by him through all.”

What I like about this is that I identify with light because I value honesty. I also declare my innocence by my refusal to condone any form of murder. I do not approve of killing animals whether human or another species. And specifically, I believe that the way to purity is chastity/celibacy because surely sex is the root of all human evil as it is the very thing that creates humans who then kill the other animals and destroy the planet in uncountable ways.

And the vegan I met at work is somebody that I hardly know and yet I respect her for she is an ethical vegan like me and I see no evil or violence in her. And I hope that she feels the same about me. But perhaps the most nagging question on my mind is: Why do I care how she feels about me? This I do not know and must meditate on the subject.

I know it’s not polite to call people stupid but it’s sure what I think most humans are most of the time. When I see the kinds of excuses people make to justify animal killing or the things people say prove the existence of their particular God, I find that people lack basic sense.

But you know, some people I can really learn to like even if they are stupid. While being intelligent is important for making the right ethical decisions, it’s far from the most important thing. The most important part is having good intentions and being kind enough to care about others. Because even if you know the facts but lack the love that motivates you to do the right things, all the knowledge in the world won’t do any good.

However either the love or intelligence is any good when isolated. People may have good intentions but accidentally harm others without the knowledge they need to help them. For example, when somebody is grieving over the death of a loved one, people may tell them that they will see them again in heaven. Sure it works for religous people but brings no comfort to someone who is an atheist or is already doomed to hell according to the religion because they are gay or because that religion teaches that only humans live after death. I have thought about this most recently because I know someone who is upset about the death of her dog. There is very little comfort anyone can offer in a situation like that.

Sadly, I find that humans always have greater potential to hurt others than they do to help them. Humans can kill but they cannot bring someone back to life. They can say words that hurt someone but they can never change things so that it’s the same as if they never said them.

To me, the idea of death being the end of existence is the only comfort I can find in the sea of misery that life so often is. Others may not understand this and may think I am depressed. But in any case, I know that there is nothing that they can say that makes the good in this world outweigh the bad. There is happiness but there is always more pain than any of us would wish.

And seriously, my life is actually pretty good right now but someday I will die and I am able to look at this reality in the face and yet still try to go on. I can do this because I’m a strong person and also smart enough to know that because my time is limited, I must make the most of it.

I don’t have much content on this blog yet but do it as I have thoughts. However I did start another blog here:

https://chastitydresses.wordpress.com/

It’s probably going to be where I post more often because I think a lot about fashion and dresses. Enjoy if you care about my strange opinions.

The way I feel about humans is complicated. With rare exceptions, I don’t like them. There are a few here and there that are tolerable but I pretty much find most to be completely a waste of space. Most are selfish, greedy, and just plain shallow. They care greatly about which sports team wins a football or baseball game but they care nothing for the animals who they eat while making jokes about how they love bacon and talking about how great they are because they are a Christian or because they went to college or make a lot of money.

And then there are others that are somewhat like me. Some I have a great liking of them because they are vegans and at least have some moral integrity. I find that veganism is an absolute minimum we can do because the alternative is to be murdering directly or indirectly.

But even the 1% of good people can’t outweigh the actions of the 99% of bad people. If I could wipe out the human race by pushing a button, I would do so without hesitation. I know this would wipe me out too but whatever, I’ll die eventually anyway.

In spite of this, I will do no violence to anybody. I won’t kill them because I literally cannot do it and because I still follow the golden rule. But if that magic button that could wipe out all existence was real I’d press it because I would no longer live to regret it and nobody would suffer.

Preventing suffering is what is most important to me. My promotion of veganism, celibacy, and rants against religion are all part of it. No wonder I don’t have many friends! People just don’t like being around a person who will depress them with the truth. Sure I’m miserable but at least I’m honest, unlike most people.

I can still say I love humans though because my redefinition of love is the golden rule. It is a love without feeling. My love is neither sexual nor any other feeling. All my feelings about humans are generally negative and there are exceptions but I dare not mention any specific people to keep them anonymous. I do wish there were more of them and that I had a group to be part of. I’m quite a confused mess. I’d like friends who I connect with but I also want everyone to stop existing!

I am probably the most unlikely person to be interested in LGBTQIA+ type of issues given my fundamentalist protestant Christian background. I was raised as a Christian and taught the Bible. Of course I heard all the time that the Bible was all literal historical truth. Sure there were some who thought parts of it were allegory but God never showed up to settle any disagreements on interpretation of the Bible.

Because I was struggling with gender issues in my 20s and because I overcame speciesism and went vegan for the animals, it only makes sense that I’ve come to a place in my life where I don’t care about whether God exists or not. Either way the Bible and Churches are the biggest threat I know of to animals and to gay and transgender humans because they cause people to believe that God gave humans permission to eat animals and that homosexuals must be executed. While there are only a few verses that seem to be talking about homosexuality that doesn’t keep the Christians from picking on gay people for their “sins” while completely ignoring everything Jesus said about the golden rule and loving your neighbor as yourself.

So in short, I’ve become to disgusted with Christianity and all the harm that comes from these beliefs which come from the Bible that I have an interest in helping the LGBTQIA+ community because I believe it WILL be the downfall of Christianity because Christians have already lost so much of their influence and the only legal issues they seem to get involved in anymore have to do with gay marriage, transgender care, or abortion.

But there is one more thing. Gay, transgender, and asexual people are extremely unlikely to reproduce and therefore are automatically better in my opinion than straight people because I want the human race to go extinct.