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Unfortunately I have been experiencing another side effect. It looks like I’ve lost some hair on my head. I did some searching and found that lots of others noticed significant hair loss in only 2 months. Jocelyne has mentioned it in June one night when taking me home but I didn’t think I noticed but lately I have been shedding hairs while at work that end up in my mouth and then I choke on them.

And the insane amount of diarrhea, oily skin, and stomach pain I’ve had over the past few months is making me have to quit the Gabapentin anyway. It’s gonna be hard to build up my health savings fund anyway if I continue to use it to pay for it anyway because it’s so expensive.

Plus my performance at work will probably be much better without the side effects.

https://healthunlocked.com/rlsuk/posts/134363303/hair-loss-on-gabapentin

https://www.jpsmjournal.com/article/S0885-3924(08)00650-7/fulltext

https://www.reddit.com/r/Fibromyalgia/comments/7imk8u/i_took_myself_off_of_gabapentin_because_my_hair/

The first problem with the consistent life ethic as described by Wikipedia is that it only includes human life and therefore is not consistent enough for me.

Second opposing assisted suicide is not something I’m interested in because quite seriously a person must have the right to end their life when it’s no longer worth it.

For example if something happened where I was permanently blind. My life would be over since I could not work and make money or do my art.

The consistent life is a good start but there is a difference between ending your own life and that of another without their permission.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Consistent_life_ethic

PS: To all the people who have tried to tell me that a fetus is no more sentient than a carrot or something similar, I’ll never believe that and even if you were right, the problem is society doesn’t seem interested in preventing pregnancy or permanent sterilization surgery would be promoted by everyone and tax funded too as it should be.

But people make money off of selling abortions and birth control pills and their greed is the reason why we don’t have the policies required to prevent pregnancy in the first place. That’s what we should be agreed on and work toward, not making abortion illegal, but preventing pregnancy in the first place.

People think I call myself pro-life to mean my goal is about making abortion illegal but to be against something means you want to stop it from happening, not that you want to “punish” people or make them go to jail. Nobody should be punished because nobody has a free will and nobody deserves anything.

But people are not usually on the level to understand that fact and they have the nerve to think people choose their actions. Nobody chooses their actions because those actions are the effects of prior causes. That is determinism and without that understanding nobody will learn to prevent abortion because they don’t know why it happens. Don’t think for a minute that I don’t know the social and financial reasons it happens. And that’s why we need to fix those problems. How to do it will be a talk we will all have.

I get a lot of strange messages from people I don’t know on Facebook but this one is hard to beat.

Obviously it’s hard not to notice that this is actually quite typical of men. All they want to do is fuck things. Then they wonder why I don’t want to be seen as one of them and it only makes my desire to transition to female stronger.

My third format will be known as BPM or Binary Pixel Map. It will be capable of storing ANY image file ever made up to 24 bits Red, Green, Blue but also capable of 1,2,4, or 8 bits grayscale.

This means it’s capable of doing anything my other formats BBM and BGM can do. But I like all 3 formats equally because I made them up.

There are many good image formats available but they tend to be compressed which makes them hard to read and write from a programming perspective. So far my code is capable of loading and saving a few different formats. If I were to combine my code with a graphics library in any programming language, I could write a conversion tool which can convert between my BBM,BGM, and BPM formats and others such as PNG,GIF,and JPEG.

It’s a lot of work that I’ll do if I can ever get my own apartment but if I succeed then I’ll want to make another sourceforge project which people can download the tool and several image files in my own formats and then convert them into another format so they can see the images in their preferred image viewer.

Or maybe I’ll even make a viewer tool which specifically allows viewing of the files in a window.

I have been working on code for a new format! Here are some screenshots of the work in progress! This new format will do grayscale and full RGB color!