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H: Hello Chastity, I can see you are troubled. You look tired even in the dream world. What is wrong?

C: I have been through the toughest time. I resigned from my job. It was what I had to do to protect what’s left of my physical and mental health.

H: It was hard on you wasn’t it? What happened?

C: About two months after surgery, I was having knee trouble. My right knee started locking up and shaking uncontrollably. I was hurting so bad at work but I had to keep working even though I was crying from the pain. That was until December 9 2020 when I could not stand any more, my right knee popped and I could not stand up on it. I had to be taken to the hospital and have some tests done. I had to walk with crutches for two weeks and do physical therapy. I finally regained the ability to walk but not as fast as before and I cannot run or dance as I once could! I missed two months of work and even when I finally returned, I was still not fast enough and because of my weak knees I was using my back to lift. One day I was putting on a shirt and I could hear a loud crack in my back. My body seems to be falling apart because that job was too much for me. I left on April 9 2021.

H: What happened when you left?

C: It was time for my monthly review. Because I was below quota too many times they told me that they would send my review to the corporate office and they would make the decision on whether to terminate my employment or not. I asked why they bothered with that process if the policy was for me to be terminated if I could not meet their requirements. They said that I could instead voluntarily resign instead. I took the option so that I could leave the job the same day rather than continuing to hurt my body while some higher up manager went through a process of deciding my case.

H: Do you feel that it was the right decision?

C: Yes. The top priority was protecting my own health. I feel as close to death as I have ever been. All the muscles in body are aching and the pain in my knees only goes away when I lay down. I’m not sure about what will happen to me but I know that now I may have the time to figure out what I am doing with my life.

H: What do you want to do?

C: I want to know that I am making a difference. I want my life to be more than just working a job for money and paying bills. There must be more purpose in my life than this. I just don’t know what it is!

H: Sounds like you’re going through a lot of changes. Do you not know what you want?

C: No, I have forgotten exactly what my life is about. I put everything I had into that job and I got my own apartment. I thought my life was just starting but now it looks like it could all be over. Everything I have could be taken away from me. I could be disabled for life and unable to work another job. I could be broke and homeless. I don’t even know who I will have left in my life. I feel so alone and scared.

H: Scared of what?

C: Scared that I failed in whatever my life was meant to be.

H: And you don’t know what your life is about?

C: No, I was hoping that maybe you could tell me.

This post was copied from Poffo’s Facebook post.

https://www.facebook.com/PoffoMan/posts/10213158660296016

Part 4 of the unicorn story is available for sale for $3 on Smashwords.

https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/1075764

And Amazon.

I believe it can be enjoyed standalone but also makes a lot more sense for someone who has already read the first 3 parts in the original book.

Check out the Chandler’s Honesty page on my blog to read the first 2 parts for free on my blog. The story of how I met Honesty the unicorn is rather interesting and quite personally transforming. The cover image that shows on Smashwords and on Amazon is a variation of the first book cover combined with my midnight rainbow picture from years ago. The subtitle “A Horse in the Night” is a parody of “A Thief in the Night” which symbolizes how Honesty came into my life when I least expected at the lowest most depressing points in my life and acted as a therapist to help me process my emotional trauma.

Chastity thought she had it all figured out. She knew she was on the perfect path of ethical veganism and celibacy. She knew who she was and life seemed pretty good, but Honesty had warned her once before that she would in the future be tested even beyond anything she had experienced. She wondered what this test could possibly be and wondered if perhaps there was still some great fear or challenge coming that would break her soul. She didn’t know it at the time but it would be this very fear that was her greatest enemy. She could be the strongest, most honest, and most excellent example of someone who followed the Golden Rule. But life has a delicate balance and there is a dark side to everything and everyone, even Chastity. When this test Honesty mentioned happened, would she have the strength to resist her greatest fears? Or will it be her doom?

I asked to talk with Poffo on the topic of sexuality and how our response to it is an essential aspect of any person’s worldview. Poffo and I disagree on whether there exists a healthy and purely good form of sexuality. To me, sexuality requires a worldview in which to explain the meaning and purpose of all things. Unlike Poffo, I believe that Nature made a mistake.

Poffo’s statement:
** Sex & Sexuality ** I believe that sex is a healthy, wholesome, incredibly powerful activity/experience, that should be embraced and enjoyed by all, but only in the context of yourself or two or more *consenting* adults, and only if your activities are not harming to yourself or damaging to others. Obviously, this would imply that procreation and human reproduction should be discouraged, because it violates both of these principles, in that it is a non-consensual act (from the viewpoint of your offspring), that imposes the inevitable hardship and suffering of life onto the potential child being born, since it will inevitably cause harm to them or to others, in some way, shape or form. For modern humans, intentional breeding is ALWAYS a selfish act, that is guaranteed to cause sickness, death, pain, discomfort, trauma, turmoil, suffering and disease, to your potential child and those around them (this is the view of all Anti-natalists, but it is not something i have incorporated into Biopan in any significant way). Getting back to the subject of sex, another important point to consider is this: if it is not a desirable thing to someone personally, then it should in no way be forced or imposed upon them (as in the case with anyone on the asexual spectrum). Romance, passion, sensuality, intimacy, and physical pleasure should be encouraged under the parameters of the guidelines i mentioned above and in the video. Marriage or committed, monogamous relationships are not a required or necessary prerequisite, but a healthy mind and body are. Pre-marital sex, extra-marital sexual activity, masturbation, fornication and promiscuity, are not condemned, but the exploitation, manipulation, or glorification of our bodies, physical intimacy, and erotic or sexual sensation, that is co-opted and usurped for selfish or financial gain, recreated falsely as an illusion to others for money and portrayed in a dishonest way, as in the case with strippers, pornography, prostitution, escorts, or any form of sex-worker activity, that is superficial, dishonest, one-sided or isolated, without any other emotional component, will inevitably lead to problems (not necessarily for those choosing to do this, but for the observers on a psychological and emotional level). Aside from these forms of hijacking and manipulation, humans can engage in committed, monogamous, polyamorous, same-sex, opposite-sex, virtual-sex, or solo-sex, as long as they want, any time they want, with whomever they want, in whatever way they chose, as long as it doesn’t induce guilt, shame, self-hatred, self-loathing, self-condemnation, or become an unhealthy preoccupation or fixation, that interferes with other areas of life and inhibits your ability to function in a holistic way. Sexual desires should be pursued and fulfilled mutually and intentionally, not repressed or suppressed, demonized, judged or condemned. Sexual fantasies should be pursued and experienced in a balanced and healthy way, that allows for the exploration of pleasure, intimacy, sensuality, and the release of sexual energy and tension in a deliberate and wholesome way, that does not interfere with other aspects of life, or cause psychological or emotional problems to the individual. The Biopantheism outlook on sex is that we are all animals, and that this activity/experience, served a necessary utilitarian function, that allowed all species on this planet to evolve and proliferate… and in the higher organisms, facilitate certain important bonds and strengthen familial ties needed for survival. This was a necessary and useful adaptation, and i do not believe that Nature in Its unconscious wisdom, made a “mistake” by creating or allowing it to exist. As with anything else in life, context and intention is key and how it is used or experienced in each situation, determines whether or not it is a healthy and wholesome action. Any preoccupation, fixation, or obsession, that leads to a dysfunctional or destructive imbalance of mind and body, should be avoided and discouraged. AND, that includes the demonization and phobic response/reaction and aversion to it, based on past traumas and negative experiences. Basically, in my ontology, you can have any view you want when it comes to sex under the Biopan paradigm, as long as it is not a *negative* view and your actions don’t involve children, family members, non-human animals, or doing something self-destructive or obsessive. As long as it is being experienced between two or more consenting adults and no one is being harmed, I will always view it as a good thing.

Check out more of Poffo/Naython’s work.

https://biopantheism.wordpress.com/
https://www.facebook.com/groups/Biopantheism
https://poffoman13.wixsite.com/